Lame is the new cool. Embrace it.
10 years ago today I narrowly escaped being raped and murdered in a subway station. I was 100lbs heavier, and clothed nearly up to my neck, en route to a funeral. It was just after 7AM in one of the most populated cities in the world. I didn’t ask for it. My body wasn’t a …
If you’ve been following me for any amount of time, you know I’ve spoken at length about the bullying I’ve endured since childhood…that by age 12 it pushed me into a depression so deep, I contemplated suicide. About 2 months before my 13th Birthday, my parents moved us out of NYC, to Lancaster, PA. I …
Always at war. With myself. With you. With versions of us that may not exist. Avoidance of the ones that do. Crushed by the weight of unspoken words. Shared dreams. Broken promises. Unconditional love. And loathing. Hand-in-hand. Forever intertwined. Letting go…of holding on for dear life. A moment of silence. For everlasting peace. I am …
Years, they pass in waves. Some slow and steady. No seismic shift. We wade through the waters tentatively, cautiously optimistic. Others hit hard and fast. Rippling throughout the ocean of our lives forevermore. We hold on, hoping we can still stand once it has come to pass. To do so without any shifting of direction …
I’m currently aboard a flight to St. Louis, on what would have been your 59th Birthday. I can’t help but remember my first trip there. I had just turned 19. I was young, and in love for the first time. We fought for weeks before I left. Every time you told me I couldn’t go, …
Internally this year has been one of tremendous transformation. I started healing things that had been so severely damaged, I had long since forgotten that wasn’t their natural state of being. I’ve let people in to some of my darkest corners. I’ve shared stories of my deepest wounds. I’ve worn my broken heart on the …
On this day, 17 years ago, my Bullseye journey began. The continuing spiral of our parent’s addiction had catapulted us across the country, and the transition from East Coast to West Coast had been a difficult one. We were borderline homeless, and I needed a job. I’ve spoken in the past about my hesitance to …
My heart is full, overflowing with gratitude. I buried myself so deeply in self doubt and regret over the last year, I had lost sight of my true purpose. I needed to be reminded of why my life has had to unfold in this dark, distorted manner. I needed to be reminded that I am …
I’ve always been one to breathe such a fire into my relationships, I never believed love could die. Over the last couple years, as I have journeyed through my evolution, I’ve spent less and less time fanning the flames. The pieces of my heart that have been scattered into various places across my history, are …
Yesterday was the 4 year anniversary of my return to the store in that parking lot. It was the exclamation point on a week of chaos. As I sat and stared at the sunset after another long, physically and mentally demanding day, I felt overwhelmed with gratitude. There have been times when I have cherished …