Sixteen years. Of love. Laughter. Tears. Hugs. Frustration. Friendships. Rivalries. Blood. Sweat. Determination. Disappointment. Perseverance. Adaptability. Broken promises. Healed hearts. Paper cuts. Tape issues. Spiderwraps. Late nights. Early mornings. Call boxes. Miracle work. Learning opportunities. Personal growth. Uphill battles. Loyalty. Sixteen years. Of red. Of constants. Of soulmates. Of LOVE. #FBF #SweetSixteen #HappyAnniversary #BullseyeFamily #BullseyeLife …
The Lame Chick: Memory Lane
A few takeaways from when your best friend of nearly 25 years comes for a visit: Nothing that we thought was important at 16 was actually important. Teenaged boys are dumb. Teenaged girls are the worst. The same damage that haunts your self perception and decision-making as a kid follows you into adulthood if you …
The Lame Chick: At Your Own Pace
My survival instincts forced me to grow up fast. By 8 I was raising my brother and sister. They became my focus and my purpose. Keeping them safe, keeping them at the forefront, because my parents had began their descent into heroin addiction and I was too afraid of losing them to reach out for …
The Lame Chick: Breathe
Growing up in chaos gave me a quick adaptability…honing the skills to be both quiet observer, and active participant simultaneously. My brain operates at high capacity to keep up with the world around me in the only way I know how, full survival mode. At all times. At all costs. The mental and emotional exhaustion …
The Lame Chick: Suicidal Tendencies
‘Standing at the edge of hopelessness. Light is fading fast. Daunted by the path ahead. Mostly convinced the destination has remained unchanged, regardless of the twisted journey. Inner chaos is forever. There will never be peace. Happiness isn’t for you. Others grow from your pain. Nurtured by your experience. Encouraged by your survival. Servitude is …
Predestined
Predestined When they start to question Why I do the things I do Each choice Each decision Each sacrifice led to you And when they start to question How my heart held true Each bruise Each break Each tear led to you And when they start to question How I survived and made it through …
The Lame Chick: The Speech
#OnThisDay a year ago, I stood beside two of my nearest and dearest as they entered into wedded bliss. Never has joy been more palpable. Memories of that day still fill my heart. The following is the speech I wrote that morning: “I’ll be honest, as I sat down to write this speech, I began …
The Lame Chick: Live Your Life
For most of my life, I never truly knew myself. Many of the thoughts, opinions, and ideas I had about who I am, and how people perceive me, came from the mouths of others. I was told I was awkward. Weird. My voice was too deep. I was too tall. Fat. Ugly. I was too …
Exit Strategy
Exit Strategy My heart flips a switch If you bruise my soul The deepest emotions Suddenly run cold No hint of the damage You’ll try to repair My love will just vanish As though it had never been there I’ll mourn the loss Of what once felt true And learn to live Without it being …
Triggered: An Anniversary
Out for a walk a year ago, a man who had sexually harassed me in the past approached me on the street. That incident set me on a course I hadn’t intended, unearthing dark recesses I had spent a lifetime burying. That evening triggered me so significantly, it caused a severe psychological shift. In the …